Sunday, March 7, 2010

I don't call him Dr. Miracles for nothing!

You guys? I have been keeping a tiny little, very scary, yet OH SO big and amazing secret from you.

I'M PREGNANT.

I can hardly believe the words as I type them.

5w3d today.

I've been a little scared to share this information with you because I know that as some of you read it, your heart will break a little bit. And my heart breaks with you, for you. I'm so sorry that we all have to go through this. Over 3 1/2 years of TTC, even through losing Mya and the many pregnancy announcements within the same week that I lost her, I won't claim to have jumped up and down in excitement, but I *can* say that I was always overjoyed for the person. I never deleted a blog because they got pregnant. I tried to find hope in their excitement. I always try to look at it in a sense that there is not a fixed amount of happiness in the universe. Just because one person got their BFP, it didn't mean that they took up one spot that should have been for me. Sometimes it can seem that way, but I tried to keep positive and take strength from their joy. And I hope you will do that, too, but I fully and completely understand if it's just too hard to read.

I will also be very upfront that I won't not blog about my pregnancy. I plan to keep this blog pretty much the same as it has been, but I won't forego the posts about pregnancy.

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So, that's my disclaimer. Now, if you're still sticking around, I say THANK YOU!

I am beyond shocked and thrilled. We did NOT expect this to happen in the first month trying since losing Mya. But I have to say it again, Dr. J IS a Miracle Worker! I can't tell you guys how thankful I am that we made the move over to him. That we took a leap of faith and switched REs. He's a man of true integrity; we entered his office ready to shell out 15K oop for IVF. He could have taken our money and ran, but he didn't. Instead, he asked us to trust him. We did, and look at where it got us! First, Mya. Now, this. All because I switched up my diet and attempted to improve my PCOS with the diet and Glumetz.a. I am not in the "obese" category. I am not a typical PCOSer and don't really have any of the typical symptoms, which makes it a little harder to treat. I am "overweight," but the change in diet (and not even that strict of a change) was what made my body respond and this is what we got. I can't even imagine the lengths that we may have gone without Dr. Miracles. In his opinion, all of the injectables cycles that we did, all of the clomid, femara, IUIs, everything else was a waste. Because if you're just feeding the cysts, your making them bigger but they're not any better quality.

Anyway, I could go on for hours about how thankful I am that we found him.

So we found out one week ago and I told my sister last week and then we told J's mom and dad last night. I didn't want to spill the beans on my blog in case somehow my MIL read this (which I hope she doesn't but you just never know).

We're going to be very cautious this time. NO announcements on facebook. NO telling friends and co-workers until we're out of the first tri. We're just taking it day by day. I have zero symptoms. Not even sore boobs, which I thought for sure I would always have. It already seems 100% different than my pgcy with Mya. I'm hoping for some m/s to kick in in the next week or so.

But, I am scared. I'm having nightmares almost nightly that I lose the baby. I have a fear that we will find out this baby also has Down syndrome. (We would obviously love it more than anything, but it is a scary thought, for sure.) I can't quite wrap my head around this good fortune. I'm sort of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Our 6 week u/s is on Thursday and I'm just praying that things look okay. I'm hoping for the best, but trying to remain cautiously optimistic about things.

I hope you will celebrate with us. And I hope if you are still in the thick of things, that you will find some hope from our miracle.

35 comments:

  1. Congratulations! I'm so happy for you two, it gives me up for my journey as well. :)

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  2. Congrats!! You deserve all the happiness. I hope as the weeks progress you feel less scared. Again, CONGRATS!

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  3. That is fantastic! Congratulations!

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  4. How exciting! Congratulations!

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  5. How exciting! I am sooo happy for you and am so happy you plan on sharing about your pregnancy! I can't wait to hear! You definitely deserve the happiness!

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  6. Congratulations!! I am so, so excited for you!! Can't wait to hear more=) Congrats again!!

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  7. Congrats! I'm a new follower. Found you through Jen @ After The Alter.

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  8. Oh my goodness I literally have tears running down my face right now. I am sooooo overjoyed for you. That is such wonderful news. CONGRATULATIONS!! I can't wait to see the first u/s pic's. Your heart is growing :)

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  9. Yay!! Congrats!! So happy for you that things worked out so quickly with Dr. Miracles. Will be waiting to see u/s pictures!

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  10. Congratulations Christina I am so happy for you!

    Do you mind if I ask you a question, about your treatment. I know Dr Miracles is wonderful - I have read about your low amylose diet, very interesting! - just wondering if you had to have a glucose test before he diagnosed you/put you on the glumetza, or did he just go on your previous history and symptoms of pcos? If that makes sense?

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  11. Hey great news!! Congrats! The worry and the what ifs are always there - try and enjoy the moment for what it is, everything just might be a-okay xx

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  12. Oh my gosh! What incredible, wonderful news!

    You are a diet super-star. And such inspiration for someone who is going back on the dreaded diet again soon (although we definitely also need injectables, but every little bit counts). I'll be reading along and wishing all the best for you.

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  13. Fantastic News!!!!! I do always find hope when "one of us" gets pregnant, so this is a joyful and inspirational announcement, at least to me!!!! Now I need to go back and read your diet! ;)

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  14. Congratulations!! What amazing news!!! I want to check out this diet of yours...I don't remember if it's here or not.

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  15. Fantastic news!!! Delighted for you and I'll be moving in my "other" list!! Fran

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  16. That's fantastic news! So happy for you! We're only a few days apart! :)

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  17. I think this is great news! We are all are striving to accomplish and just because you have and we haven't doesn't mean that you need to explain yourself to us! We are happy for you. We want you to succeed and do what we all hope to do some day...

    I'll be sending you baby sticking dust and happy thoughts...

    Have a good one!

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  18. What beautiful news! Congratulations!

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  19. Yay!! Congratulations :) So incredibly happy for you guys! Will keep you in my thoughts!! :)

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  20. I am absolutely thrilled for you! I am sitting on the couch balling hehe. I will pray for you & the lil peanut & please continue to share with us. Your good fortune gives me much hope for future success!!!!

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  21. Congratulations! I'm so very happy to hear your exciting news! Even though I haven't gotten my BFP yet I still love hearing about others who do. It gives people like me hope!

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  22. OH MY GOD, congratulations!! I was so absolutely elated when I saw the news in my reading list! I understand your trepidation and I hope that you are able to celebrate and enjoy this amazing, special, miraculous time! You (and your diet!) are truly an inspiration. Your success has definitely inspired me to take a nice, long walk tonight! Please keep us updated!! Lots of hugs! :)

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  23. Congrats!! Such fantastic news! I hope that you sail right through this first trimester with no scares or problems.

    I hope I follow in your footsteps and get a BFP on my first cycle back after my m/c - I'll know on Wednesday.

    Congratulations again!

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  24. I had a hunch that you might be prego and I was right! YAY!!!!! SO excited for you, girl! Congrats! I'll be praying for you a your little one. :-)

    P.S. We're prego buddies! I'm 4 weeks 5 days today.

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  25. WOOO HOOO!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!! I couldn't be more thrilled, congrats!!!! And of course I will still follow, I love it when Fertility-Challenged get preggo, it gives me hope!

    How are you feeling?? I want to hear all about it. What is your EDD? When is your first ultrasound?

    And what is this Glumetz you speak of?

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  26. FREAKING AWESOME! :))))))))) I am SO excited for you!

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  27. Congratulations!!! :-) What fantastic news!

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  28. Congratulations to you both! Hope Thursday goes well for you.

    :)

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  29. I'm behind in reading! OMG Congratulations! :) A PCOSer taking Glu.metza getting pregnant is EVEN MORE cause for excitement for me!!

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  30. Oh my gosh - I know I've had a crazy few weeks buy I can't believe I missed this - mad congrats

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  31. OMG, I totally missed this while I was on vacay!!! I was reading your diet Q&A and read when is your EDD and was like, wtf...am I missing something here. Well I was, huge CONGRATS!!!! So excited for you, this is just such amazing news!!!!

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  32. Hi there, I just found your blog because I was just diagnosed with PCOS and was searching for other PCOSers that have ended up pregnant. I would love to know what the diet changes you underwent were and what Glumetz is, I'm just starting my infertility journey and would love to know what worked for you.

    And congrats on your baby girl, she's beautiful =)

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